| I was looking over my xanga and realized that i'm kinda.... vulgar. So, i got rid of all the profanity. My xanga is now rated pg... i think... well the first page that is... -_-;
For the past two years that i've been back in the states, I've been to Raleigh and Chapel hill numerous times. But for some reason, i havn't visited Durham, which i spent like 5 years of well... my childhood in. Then i realized that that it's not just Durham. I've never returned to a single one of the eight different cities that i've lived in... Today i drove up to Durham to visit Emily. And for the first time in my life, i was returning to well, the past... We went to my old house(apartment-_-) and everything i saw contained so many memories... I started remembering the faces of old childhood friends... memories of playing baseball in the tiny little backyard.... yelling across a playground at my sister... playing basketball with a bunch of black and hispanic kids... beating snakes with baseball bats... lighting stuff on fire... racing to the bus stop... trying to catch birds... -_-, i could go on forever... I just suddenly felt soooo great ^^; Next, i went to my old church. just stepping on the church grounds made me happy... once again, everything was coming back to me. I just looked up at the sky and smiled^^; I felt so great... i hadn''t felt this great since... well, i saw emily a couple hours ago and she ran up to me and hugged me... -_- nvm... no! it was like a different kind of great... and yea, i saw some cars were at the church so i went inside, and this guy, asked me what i was looking for... i think. And i said "well, I used to go to this church a couple years ago..."(eight years i think) and i told him that i was Josh Yu, and he was like "NO WAY! I'm Joe!"(The pastor of the church) I'm like...!!!!!!! And it was so great... that's like the twenty millionth time i said "so great" -_-. So we talked. Did a little bit of catching up and yea, it was so great! I found out that Steph, his daughter and a good friend of mine for a couple years up till like 6th grade was going to Chapel Hill too! So, i left my number started heading home, she left me a message oh my cell but i got it way to late to call her back, so we'll have to talk tomorrow and do some catching up... I always envied people who had like friends that they'd known since like 2nd grade... I never had a friend like that... Always moving and moving again and moving again. I hate moving... But it made me soooo happy that i actually get to meet friends that i knew back since wat... i can't even remember ^_^ Sooooooooo great ^_^
Well yea, i drove up to Durham today to visit Emily ^_^! I was soooo happy to see her. I got to see the school and we got to eat lunch at some fancy pizza place. She made me stop eating cus she wanted to take some back to the dorm -_- I've missed her so much for the past.... two days -_-;;; That's not sarcasm T_T Ever since she started school at Science and Math at Durham... I've been... so lonely... so emtpy... I remember getting mad at her when she made me chat on the phone when i was busy doing stuff or out with people... but now I miss it so much T_T I hate how we can't talk on the phone at night right before we fall asleep... Even when i'd stay out really late, she'd stay awake so we could talk about our days and... yea... I hate it how we can't just sit around... I hate it how I can't just drive over whenever i want to see her... I'm so used to being able to spend time with her, always being around her.... I can't sleep at night and i don't want to wake up in the mornings... Things better get better once I'm at Chapel Hill.... D*mn this sucks... and there goes the profanity again...
I love u Emily... and i miss u.... |
